I just don't know anymore

I just don't know anymore, whether or not I should just let my body wander freely, or should I admire the deep blue sky every seconds of my life or, watching the grass grow inches per seconds/minutes/hours/days/months/years/decades.
Study or continue the gaming ways, I don't know, I just don't know.
And no, no relationships, not yet. no.

I JUST DON'T KNOW ANYMORE!

Signing off now, sorry.